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I’m not sure if it’s because I’m tired of the crappy cold weather, but I feel like I’ve been living in a bubble for the past couple of weeks. When I’m not working, I feel like all I am is being a mom. It’s ceaseless: requests for food, whiny kids who don’t like the food I give them, siblings bickering, toys all over the living floor, wiping bottoms, the same bedtime discussions every night, and the yelling (from me and the kids).
I realized I barely spoke to my friends. I don’t know if I had a real conversation with another adult besides my husband. No, Facebook and Twitter don’t count. I haven’t even made my
weekly daily weekly trek to Target. I had no idea what was going on in the world except a vague notion of the college basketball tournament. Life has been work and kids. Or at least that’s what my bubble felt like at the time.
Sure, my kid are cute. It’s hard to stay mad at them. However, Jaxson, my 3 year old, is simultaneously independent and clingy. He wants to be more than near me. He wants to be ON me. On my lap while I’m trying to read my book. Or sitting on my head. Or he sticks his hand down my shirt like a teenager boy might attempt in the dark movie theatre. And I weaned him over a year ago.
I just need some space, kid. A concept he doesn’t get yet.
I told my husband that instead of a cabana boy, I wish for a room of my own. It doesn’t have to be big. It just needs to be soundproof and have wifi. Oh and a door that locks from the inside. He thought I was joking. I’m totally serious. I guess my bathroom might fit the description if I put up some sort of soundproof barrier. Then I wouldn’t hear the whining or demands for foodstuffs.
Wouldn’t you like a soundproof room of your own too? Maybe it has a martini bar in it too. Just a teeny escape from being a mom.
Thank God spring has finally arrived. In the meantime, I’ll take advantage of the beautiful weather. We’ll head to the park and let my youngest run off some steam while I stick my nose in the book. I need a little sun so I still resemble an Asian person, you know?
Still working on that room of my own though. II’ll take that appletini now please.